珍惜自己

如果自己都不疼惜自己，又有谁会珍惜我？

别爱我

很想对你说声对不起
却永远说不出口
心中对你的亏欠
挥之不去

不想失去你 却无法爱你
不想伤害你 却不能骗你 更不能骗自己

如果时间能治愈情伤 那我必须等多久才能痊愈
当伤口结成了疤 心就能停止痛楚吗

拥有一颗不完整的心
我还有爱人与被爱的权利吗

Secrets - a dirty word?

Is it in our nature to lie?
Is our heart such a mysterious place we need to hide from the outside world?

The value of a secret lies in it's nature, not in it's content.
It is precious because it's a secret; and not that it is a secret because it is precious.

I have a secret. I have a secret identity, and that identity is me.
Always trying divert the attention away from the real me, I try to be comical, loud, rough and rude at times. Be everything that I am not, be as mis-understood as I could be, be as unreal as the situation allows.

The rule of my life : When people in my life leave, it's because they have not known the real me, therefore it is their fault, not mine. It is their weakness, not mine. They are just not strong enough for me. They are just not special enough to feel my inner thoughts. An excuse I give myself constantly. If I don't open my heart, I could not be hurt.

Many things have been done to protect my vulnerable core, my weak soul. Even when I do not give my all, it still hurt.

There are a few people who caught a glimst of my true self, a few short moments when I allow the inner self to surface. Before they could figure out what happen, I would close the door again and they would not know the difference.

If the world doesn't like my facade, I could live with that. If the world doesn't like the real me, could I live with that? What can I do then? I've been waiting for the one worthy but he seem to have lost his way.

Where is my Prince Charming?

Charity

What is Charity?

When you give all of yourself, asking nothing in return, is that charity?

When you lend a helping hand to a needy person, is that charity?

I've constantly reminded myself to perform charitable acts, to give a portion of my earnings to Charitable Organisations, is that charity?

As I watched the President's Star Chariy Show "http://5.mediacorptv.sg/programmesdetail.aspx?iid=MDC080923-0000003" on tv last night, I found myself weeping like a child. Many people on the show (and I'm sure, many people watching the show) felt sorry for the "unfortunates". Personally, I dislike to refer to these people as needy, I feel that they are merely people who have more challanges in life than me. I admire their strength and determination, compassion and the ability to be grateful for all that they have.

As I dialled the numbers on my cell-phone to donate a small token, I asked myself : Was my donation a charitable act? No, it was a token of appreciation for their charitable act. They have humbled me by showing the virtue of life, the goodness of man and the joy of giving. They have given me more than I could repay.

Bring me a sunrise

Bring me a sunrise, to celebrate a new beginning, a new union.

I don't want no diamond ring,
I don't want no fancy dresses,
I only ask for a promise and hope

I don't need your sympathy
I don't need you to rescue me,
I only ask for you to have some faith

Bring me a sunrise, to celebrate my new life, without you

The old path is safe but I'm tired of walking in circles.
This new road, so unfamiliar
no idea where it would take me
Please give me courage to walk on
don't let me turn back, for I would despise myself if I do

Choice

Everyone has a story to tell
It is up to you, the reader
to decide if it is a sad story or a heart-warming one.

You could choose to see only the sadness
or you could choose to see only the happiness
To each who read the story
one moment will stand out from the rest

For me, I choose to feel grateful for the experience

If the road ahead is dark
Let faith be your guiding light
For it is darkest before dawn

Special

If it takes a special person to see the qualities in me,
then perhaps you are just too ordinary for me.