Monday, July 11, 2016

Memories vs Reality

One's mind could play tricks on one. How accurate are your memories? As much as I wish I have perfect memories, especially for the happy ones, I know that I "beautify" them. I remember distinctly getting excited and rushing to the door when I hear my godfather's whistle every evening when he came home. But the details eludes me.

My godsister told me that when they were younger, my godfather used to be very bad-tempered and had more than one occassion raised his hand at my godmother. That wasn't the man I knew. I remember him as a kind and quiet man, smoking in a corner, watching and listening as the rest of the family chatted in the living room. He offered to pay for my education when he heard that I was having financial difficulty to stay in college, though I didn't take up the offer, I was truly grateful because he didn't have much.

Did I choose to only see the good in the one man whom I thought was the most down-to-earth and real guy in my life? 

Saturday, July 2, 2016

受伤?

似乎受伤了
心隐隐作痛

是真的喜欢上了吗?
还是因为失去吗?

难过,真切感觉到心疼,胸口像被大石压着,都不过气。
可是,到底为什么?

到底是喜欢你的心受伤了?还是因为自尊心受损?

如果不曾相恋,还能算得上失恋吗?
如果从没真正拥有,还能算得上失去吗?

从一开始,就没想过未来,因为我们不可能会有未来
我们之间的距离不是一时片刻能够跨越的
一心想活在当下,珍惜缘分

一厢情愿的以为我在你的心里能占据很小很小的位置


原来我只不过是在你的心外徘徊,不曾住进你心里